aching..

yeah.. i am aching.. badly.. i danced yesterday for 3 hours over and over and over again practicing the steps and while going home itself i had started to feel my legs and hands aching. We were discussing on the bus about the dance steps and formations and at that precise moment, the driver applied the breaks. We all leaned forward to see what was happening and at that moment, the bus collided with a truck in front of us who had suddenly applied the breaks (yeah, on a highway and we wud have been running at a speed of about 100 kmph). And Bang! we all collided with the backs of the seats in front of us! Oh my chin is still paining badly!!!
Our driver controlled the bus beautifully. If he would not have, this bump would have resulted in a serious accident. God bless him!
So, am back to office today with my whole body acing from the sudden dance regime and my chin a bit more painful and a bit swollen too.
continued-28feb08
Well, as a matter of fact i am still aching. And fuming too because of lack of co-operation form the OM. It is irritating. I am stuck up just for one email id. Pathetic. anyways, my singing (yes. i am singing too!) and dance practice is going fine. its just today we've got. tomorrow is the competition. i hope we are good. Prize is secondary, performance is important (well, i am going to be disappointed if some one else wins, but still... performance is important!)
Responsibility is going to be added to my current role and that too on the most significant day of my life. Just accepted a meeting invite for the discussion of the same which is to happen soon.
Lot of things are going on in my head. Loads of confusion. I am going to have to change my approach totally towards attacking the problems now. I get very easily distracted. That needs to be changed. And most importantly, passion.. passion abt the work. I need to start belonging to the company, which i often find so difficult. Not only in the professional world, but personal too. I am too independent to get attached to something emotionally. the work is done just because i am getting paid for it. not because of an interest or longing to do it. That part is definitely missing. i am not ashamed to admit it. i dont care. because whatever job has been given to me, it happens on time no matter what! But still, i do feel that somethings missing..
somethings definitely missing.... and that will have to flow in soon.. very soon...