looong time...... i have been gone again for quite some time.
there is been a reason.. i have been very busy. first office, then home, then laziness of not taking the pains to write. then this horrific cough and cold and fever.
i am better now. not entirely. but much better than what i was yesterday. i am taking about 12 tablets (purely medicinal) / day. i have never taken so many tablets / day in my entire lifetime! well, circumstances change, dont they?
so lifes going fine. not too bad not too good either.
one of my collegues left the company. he was a sort of guide, a mentor to me. yes, guess that, i did shed some tears on his last day. unexpected to me too. but i felt bad. specially for the reason he left the organization.
personal life is going good. about time my in-laws will move back into the house we are staying. enduring 6 months of their presence is going to be no short of an 'agni pariksha!' i dont know how i will be able to take it this one more time specially after what all happened in the past few months. times are testing. unkindly..
well, i will leave now. unexpected, untimely and abrupt. but there is something more important which i am trying to dig up... laters.......

When the sun rises........

Every morning in Africa, When the Sun rises,
A deer awakens, Knowing it has to outrun the fastest Lion,
Or, be hunted to death...

But... When the Sun rises,
A lion awakens, Knowing it has to outrun the slowest deer,
Or, be starved to death...

It does not matter whether you are a deer or lion,
When the Sun rises,
Better be running at your best...

Post number 100

Long time since i started this stint with writing 'what i feel' on this blog. To be true, i have not entirely been honest with myself. I have not completely written what i felt, always..
but still, here i am writing for the umpteenth time which is going to be published as 'post number 100'
When i was young, i was very quite, shy (i still am) and i never thought i wud speak this openly with anyone. let alone write a blog open to public. ASO.
things are getting heavy. loads of work. i even dream about office. and then, sometimes (thats become many times a week now) the fatigue takes over and i do nothing for a long time. (this is one way of letting out my fatigue.. writing a post!) then i realise that i am lagging on so many things and panic takes over. then i complete everything in haste and then sit idle for sometime again.
oh man! it is pathetic. and then i am tensed about shedding this loads and loads of extra kilos i have put over the past many years, and never ever tried to do something about it!
even now i am not trying particularly hard to do anything about it. i am just thinking that i shud do this and do that and what not. god help me doing this. but its high time now and i have to take some serious actions on that...
one thing i dont understand! why the hell am i being so negative on my 100th post????????
Okay, i am just back from a meeting (a technical meeting at that!!) to return back undertstanding what to do, but no idea what so ever how to do it. so i need to seriously start burning some midnight oil and start coping up with the shortfalls and try to become someone whom the people cant fool so often than going home and reading Harry Potter books (yeah.. again!!)
things need to change and i need that enthusiasm in me again. to make things simpler, i have made a master plan (this is the effect of being involved in ur work emotionally!!) and i plan to stick to it.
i will keep updating the status... i hope its 'green' all the time!
chao...

Edited to add: If you really count, the published posts on this blog are 84. However, there were some 16 posts which were published and then deleted. big number to delete! i know...
Point to note, that i have included these 16 posts in the count as well because all those posts did hit the publish button at some point of time...
So devdas, hope ur query is solved. and thanks for taking the pains to count the number of posts!! :P

Changed...

Started office. Faced the changes. And now taking in more and more changes by the day. Loads of changes happening with people around me. It seems like management is on a spree to make things......... well........ change.
I don’t know if they are right or wrong. I don’t know if they are good or bad. What ever they are, kay says, they are well planned. They plan for years to come. For people, for the factory.. for everything.
Well, as for now, I am not able to make logic out of some cases. Some are crystal clear though.
Anyways, so much for office and so much for work. I am realizing lately that I am walking and talking and eating and sleeping just office and work and office and work and nothing else.
Things are good at home. They say, in marriage, troubles lie till you cross the seventh year. There are many ups and downs in the phase of first seven years. Then, life is set.
I feel the same way. Yes, I am married for 2 ½ years only. But I and S are together for around 7 years now. And I do feel ‘Set’. Somehow a different feeling has started sinking in. my love for S has changed...... in a better way. It has become so strong and so live and so deep rooted that now nothing and no one will be able to harm it in any way.
There have been times where I had just felt of walking away from this life I was leading and being alone.... but now, no more. And I don’t think I would feel that way ever again.
Things have changed... yes... in my personal and professional life as well...
I have learned to say no. I have learned to ask questions. I have learned to raise my concerns. I have learned to fight... for myself.
I have learned to truly enjoy. I have learned to share my thoughts and feelings freely. I have learned to think on the spot and answer logically, tactfully. Now a days I make a fool of myself less number of times. Ha ha ha
Yes.. things have changed. For the better.
I have somethings in line ahead. But will talk about that later. Till then...

Pravs World..........Try till you win..

Every time we fall in life, we give up.
We give up our dreams, give up ourselves.

Waves are inspiring, not because they rise and fall;
But because each time they fall, they never fail to rise again.

To win, you need to try. Try till you win.