Post number 100

Long time since i started this stint with writing 'what i feel' on this blog. To be true, i have not entirely been honest with myself. I have not completely written what i felt, always..
but still, here i am writing for the umpteenth time which is going to be published as 'post number 100'
When i was young, i was very quite, shy (i still am) and i never thought i wud speak this openly with anyone. let alone write a blog open to public. ASO.
things are getting heavy. loads of work. i even dream about office. and then, sometimes (thats become many times a week now) the fatigue takes over and i do nothing for a long time. (this is one way of letting out my fatigue.. writing a post!) then i realise that i am lagging on so many things and panic takes over. then i complete everything in haste and then sit idle for sometime again.
oh man! it is pathetic. and then i am tensed about shedding this loads and loads of extra kilos i have put over the past many years, and never ever tried to do something about it!
even now i am not trying particularly hard to do anything about it. i am just thinking that i shud do this and do that and what not. god help me doing this. but its high time now and i have to take some serious actions on that...
one thing i dont understand! why the hell am i being so negative on my 100th post????????
Okay, i am just back from a meeting (a technical meeting at that!!) to return back undertstanding what to do, but no idea what so ever how to do it. so i need to seriously start burning some midnight oil and start coping up with the shortfalls and try to become someone whom the people cant fool so often than going home and reading Harry Potter books (yeah.. again!!)
things need to change and i need that enthusiasm in me again. to make things simpler, i have made a master plan (this is the effect of being involved in ur work emotionally!!) and i plan to stick to it.
i will keep updating the status... i hope its 'green' all the time!
chao...

Edited to add: If you really count, the published posts on this blog are 84. However, there were some 16 posts which were published and then deleted. big number to delete! i know...
Point to note, that i have included these 16 posts in the count as well because all those posts did hit the publish button at some point of time...
So devdas, hope ur query is solved. and thanks for taking the pains to count the number of posts!! :P