back..

i am back. well, this time i hope to continue to write un-interrupted for a long time now. things at office were hectic but now that i have renounced upon the pillar leadership (with which my bosses are not happy) i am actually living with less stress and tension. i am finding time to think about my regular work and getting it completed on time as well (grin).
being a pillar leader was not bad actually. no one ever thrashed me for anything (being new in the company, being the youngest of the lot and ofcourse being a girl was the reason for that). infact it was more of a priviledge being a part of the STC - thats the steering committee of our company. yeah yeah, sounds great. but if no one's thrashing you doesnt mean you are relieved of all responsibilities. infact that gives more stress (at least to me) because then, your responsibility is higher.
nonco-operation from the team members was a major issue (well no points for guessing why there was nonco-operation in the first place) which took a toll in February 09 when i finally declared my state and told my boss that i cant continue like this and some actions need to be taken ASAP.
well, soon after our annual function of the company, the big boss called me and talked to me. the first ofcourse it was all 'congratulations, great news' etc (well i am refering to the news that i am pregnant!). and then came the question which was entirely unexpected. 'so whats your plan next?'.
Me: 'next? well i am planning to come till August 09 and then take the maternity leave'
BB: 'okay, and you are planning to join back right?'
Me: Baffled. i couldnt think of any way to answer that question. 'well ofcourse i am joining back. it is very clear with the husband and the family that i am going to continue working. (and if i dont, who's going to pay my car loan and what about my wish of having a place of my own???? this i asked myself, and said 'unless ofcourse you dont want me to join back!' which was again to myself!!)
BB: No, no, its just that we have to ask this question you know because we have to plan for your replacement. we had also asked SR (my colleague who is currently on maternity leave). its ofcourse good to hear that you are going to join back!(yeah.. good to hear this as well!)
So then, its officially out since feb end. and i am getting due services. its easier to get heard and get the work done. people in the office are really taking good care of me.
well, see the paradox. people at the place i dont want to call home, are least bothered. except the husband ofcourse.
i had hear that during pregnancy everyone tries to feed things you like and behaves the way is preferred to you and is nice to you and tries to keep you happy all the time. i was stupid enough to expect this from my in-laws. not even a flickr of smile on their faces when we told them the news!
and now they have started to paint the house. i am taking medicines so that i dont have a problem of dust allergy during pregnancy and my in-laws are taking full care that i do suffer from this problem.
well, its really annoying you know! so now the husband has finally agreed that we need to move out and we are planning to do so in the next couple of weeks. i am far away right now from being happy or anything. what i only feel is immense hatered for those two people who are totally unconcerned about their son and his child who is to be born in a few months time. well, i never expected them to be concerned about me so no complaints there! what they are just doing is taking me ahead to a path of severing relations with them forever.
The husband will obviously forgive everything within a couple of weeks time and be entirely himself again. but me? i am finding that to be increasingly difficult at the moment.
anyways, so on this bitter note, i am going to end my post. and i hope that from now on i do try to write more regularly.
(for all the confused souls, the husband=S=Sushil) *wink*